Thursday, September 6, 2007

Doubt

After my first day of classes, I felt very overwhelmed with the assignments (mostly reading). I spent most of the labor day weekend pouring over my texts, running to the computer to look up theologic vocabularly, and generally wondering if I was going to be able to do this for the next three months. Yesterday was the second day of classes and I was feeling a little better about having completed all the readings, figuring out what most things meant and such. There was a little anxiety about being able to contribute to class discussion; I was trying to get my notes down, listen and try to get in a point or two but it just didn't happen. I'm not one for spontaneous conversation at that level to begin with, preferring to form my thoughts well before spewing forth what I have to say. It's a characteristic that doesn't fit well in classroom discussions but I usually manage to make do. I'm still having doubts that this is going to work. I'm not even overly busy at work and am worried what's going to happen when things pick up around here. I was thinking about the revelation of Mother Theresa's doubt and was comforted by the fact that even she questioned her faith from time to time (actually very frequently as I understand, I have yet to read the article in Time). I think we all have doubts and it's good to reaffirm them, admit them, and ask for help from God to overcome them. I know I'll be doing a lot of asking in the next few months!
Peace,
Jeff

1 comment:

roryswen said...

I look forward to your blog and following the route through St Johns!
Rory